So.. That was my second year.
It has all gone too fast and I get the feeling that I have wasted a lot of time. Assessment was today and to be honest it didn't go overly well. I don't know what went wrong in some senses. I think I've just got really bored of the course and my work. I need the summer to sort out my head and my motivation.
I don't in some ways know whether this is the right course for me. My illustrations have got about 1000% better and I am using my digital skills a lot. Maybe too much.
I think I have lost my direction in a lot of things this year. I feel in a mess about a lot of things in my personal life and I just want everything to sort itself out.
On a more positive note I am proud of myself for sticking it out.
It's hard to be positive when you don't know where you're going. One of my favorite memories of this year is a woman telling me that she knew I was a student just because of the optimism in my eyes. Looking back it probably wasn't optimism but naivety.
I have grown up beyond recognition and in a lot of ways it is frightening. Even though I've grown up I would probably say that I have actually gone backwards this year. I've now just got to work twice as hard to get back to where I want to be.
Photo's and illustrations will appear soon. This summer I am going to totally revamp beckyharris.co.uk and get my life back on track.
xx
It has all gone too fast and I get the feeling that I have wasted a lot of time. Assessment was today and to be honest it didn't go overly well. I don't know what went wrong in some senses. I think I've just got really bored of the course and my work. I need the summer to sort out my head and my motivation.
I don't in some ways know whether this is the right course for me. My illustrations have got about 1000% better and I am using my digital skills a lot. Maybe too much.
I think I have lost my direction in a lot of things this year. I feel in a mess about a lot of things in my personal life and I just want everything to sort itself out.
On a more positive note I am proud of myself for sticking it out.
It's hard to be positive when you don't know where you're going. One of my favorite memories of this year is a woman telling me that she knew I was a student just because of the optimism in my eyes. Looking back it probably wasn't optimism but naivety.
I have grown up beyond recognition and in a lot of ways it is frightening. Even though I've grown up I would probably say that I have actually gone backwards this year. I've now just got to work twice as hard to get back to where I want to be.
Photo's and illustrations will appear soon. This summer I am going to totally revamp beckyharris.co.uk and get my life back on track.
xx
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